The great thing about blogging, is you can just get all your frustration out by writing. This post is especially difficult, because I am still sorting my thoughts and feelings on the matter. I don't know about you, but sometimes I feel like everyone else's life is going at normal or fast speed... then there is me (slow speed). I do believe that God has my best interest at heart. However, I wish that my life would take off. Don't get me wrong, I know that God is using me abundantly where He has me. And I am blessed beyond belief. What it comes down to is being content with where God has me. That is exactly where I want to be. We hear all the time that everything happens for a reason, and I believe there is truth to that. The hard part for me, is that we may never know why things happened. I am sure that God has laughed at me multiple times when our conversation has gone something like this:
God: Morgan, I know what is best.
Me: Oh yea I know that, BUT why in the world did you allow this to happen?
God: For my will is perfect
Me: Yup. I know but seriously? God you know how hard I am trying... yet you are still allowing things to happen. What have I done to deserve this?
God: My ways are not your ways.
Me: Ugh. Sometimes I wish they were... oh wait I don't really mean that. Sorry Lord, I will stop complaining now.
God: Don't you know how much I love you?
Me: Yes, I do.
God: Don't you believe that I have a plan for your life?
Me: At this moment... I sure hope so!
That is just a glimpse into what my Heavenly Father has to put up with. I act like a child and He still pours out abundant love and blessing upon me! Many times we do not know what God is doing in our lives, what He is going to do, or why things have already happened. What we need to know and remember is that He truly loves us and would never let anything harm us. This does not mean that there is no pain in life experiences... believe me there is. However, I will be the first person to tell you that He provides all the strength needed to go through the fire! Stay strong and remember God knows what He is doing... even when we don't!
